Vas happenin

Currently working as a part-timer at a boutique. Trying to earn extra money because I have a debt to be settled. A summon from the jpj. The road tax has overdue but then still, I gutlessly drove the car. So much guts, Sha. Long story short, need to attend a session in the court at the 11th of February. And to assume, it would be a sum of 600 ringgit to be paid off. Earning 50 ringgit per day so have to at least work for 12 days straight, I guess well you do the maths. And I'm currently on my day 6th.

My usual view while working

I have this one impulsive disorder where I would do things intuitively and thinking that it would be one hell of an adventure and not to consider the logical consequences. I should have been aware that driving a car that has an expired road tax sticker would have cost me troubles but then I was so busy being spontaneous and impromptu I put aside of what bad things that could have happened. Brava Sha. It costs you a period of 12 intense working days for a less than an hour fun driving. Good riddance. 

But yes another shawesome disorder of mine (my friends coined that shawesome word which is frankly quite narcisisstic whenever I used it as a hashtag but still so much swag), where I would never learn lessons from my past. I wish I'm good in reflecting my past mistakes as guidance to a better life of mine. I could have used that 600 ringgit to buy a new handphone but then I simply blew the money off towards the summon thing. My life has been too unsafe lately, I should stop doing dangerous things and start being an adult (bluek).  

And on an unrelated note, I have decided, that I wanna start saving stash. I wanna save up on my meal expenses so that on my next birthday, I can get myself a birthday present which is, the iPhone 6. HEE. I have felt that satisfaction where I worked hard and saved up to buy that one thing like this one

it's a laptop that I have been aiming for, and to buy it using my part time job's salary, that is one supersweet feeling I tell ya. And yes, I wanna feel that again. But I can tell that this one is a whole different thing. Instead of buying it using wholly the money I earned, I wanna buy that phone using mostly the money I saved. 

3K. Maybe I would start skipping dinner and stop eating junk foods. And some extra part time job would help I digress. And if you are happened to read this, mak ayah, I will do just fine, don't you worry hihihihi. Berusaha! 

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Hi. I'm back. Back from the loo. I started to blog at such hr, and it was driven by this one epiphany. The epiphany that I should have been more grateful. I have always feel that what I have was never enough and I have always question on why I'm not as great as some ppl are.

And it all came down to one question, what was the purpose of my life? What was the real thing I'm seeking for in my life? Is it money? Is it happiness? Or is it something way promising which is the eternal after life?

It bugs me lifelong. The pressure to be perfect.  Been learning this and that, been keeping up with this and that. Been compromising w the temporary ecstasy. Just to make sure that I was part of the so-called 'cool' kind of ppl and up to par w certain beings. And it all came down to one question again, what was my nawaitu of doing such things in the first place?

Nawaitu. That was it.